The Broken Lover

The Broken Lover

I was a little girl who knew no love

Hatred was my daily bread

I grew up, fattened with rage

I was a dark beast filled with hate

No one loved me, I was unlovable

I detested myself, but who could I blame? 

The childhood that tore me apart from my own self?

The adolescence that ate up my virginity?

The youth that  gave me nothing but hate?

Or the Adulthood that made me see myself as an horror?

I was born without love

Grown without love

Never experienced love

Dying inside,slowly without love

Love was an unimaginable fantasy

Till I met my Love

His face ever radiant like the morning sun

With blazing eyes and dazzling hair

Whenever he spoke, I felt the gentle fire from his mouth warm up my heart

I had started walking on a river of love without realizing it

Tried shutting him out of my life

Tried stopping the stream of love from running into my heart

Yet he showed me Love

Showed me what I had never felt

Even in my depression

His smile lifted me up

His words, His touch, His kiss

Took me to another world

A world I never wanted to leave

He was the perfect and the best

I couldn't do without him

I needed his dose daily to survive

I had gotten addicted to my Lover

He was the Antidote to my lifetime ailment

He had total control over me

He was my Lord and his wish was my command 

Love had brainwashed me

And now I was completely a foolish lover

Still basking in the Rays of what I thought was love

From the river of Love

I had moved to an ocean of foolishness

Swimming blindly in it

And just at the brink of drowning

The big flip happened

Like an omelette being made

My love had changed sides

Revealing his dark, evil and dirty side

One from the bottom of hell itself

In place of love, I received hate

Bitterness and anger filled his face all day

What went wrong?

I do not know till this day

I couldn't believe the sudden twist of events

It seemed like a dream to me

A dream I hurriedly wanted to wake from

Was he taking me back to my old self?

No, I didn't want to go back

No, I wanted my love back

Reality began to hit on me

When he took my heart

With a big grin

And with a sledgehammer

Smashed it to pieces

With a hole in me

He threw me back into the pit he had pulled me from

Threw me to the bottom and shut me completely

Then he left like he was never here

The overwhelming shock had made me mute

Made me realize I was never destined for love

Love was my sworn foe

I was to be forever incongruous to it

My love had given me a smooth ride to a Haven

And like a thunderbolt

Shot me back, on a bumpy ride, to reality

And from the pit of my hate world

I tell my tale of misery